I had a conversation with a friend of mine last night about something that had happened over the last few days and really, really annoyed me. As part of the conversation I confided in my friend that sometimes, even when I am surrounded by my my closest friends here at Uni, I feel lonely. My friends can all be happily laughing and chatting away with huge smiles on their faces and I will be miserable and unaffected by what they say. Maybe this is a self indulgent habit I have dropped into, I have been told by everybody from friends at work to people I scarcely know that recently I have seemed down, in a weird mood, sad. The friend who I was having this conversation with said that sometimes he also feels the same way. I think of all the hopeful attempts by my other friends from "I love you" to big hugs and reassuring smiles that knowing somebody else is going through the same crap as me has helped the most. 

I thought by concentrating on myself with these 101 tasks and trying to do things that made me feel accomplished because I wanted them would make me happy. And so far, ticking off my achievements, even the little ones I haven't yet shared with you, has made me feel good about myself. But there is still a long way to go and a big hole to be filled within myself. 

I hope along this new journey that I meet more friends like that one who told me he feels the same way as I do. And more friends who recognize that not all is well and try their best to make me feel better without knowing what is wrong. I also hope that I can be as good a friend to those who treat me so well.